amazing amazing amazing. the whole holidays i've been slacking and working and slacking and working. the most amazing part is that the work just fall onto my lap. i don't go looking for a job... but the offers just keep coming. why is that? i guess its true.. when you're not looking for sth.. it just comes right up to ur face. when you are.. it just disappears from view. hahaha. but im glad for it. need to save up money for my melb trip!! hahaha (: can't wait! travelling alone all the way to melbourne for a WHOLE MONTH! how exciting is that. but yet there's alot of opportunity costs that come with the trip which kinda saddens me as well.. because i dont really know what im giving up and the true costs of it. for instance going on the trip means i can't accept the SDE research project which pays $8.75 an hour, i can't do any internship (which is really impt), i can't accept long term jobs (who's looking anw), i can't go for arts camp, i can't go for union camp, i can't meet up with yuying(i havent seen or spoken to her since she left), i have lesser time to meet up with ping and many others who may not be as free or around when im back.. basically alot of pros and cons. but oh well. the choice has been made. the most worrying thing i guess is yuying and the internships. hahaa. if i dont get a job inta future cz i missed this internship opportunity i guess i will just stab myself a hundred times over. anw i'm still looking forward to WINTER in melbourne (some what) where i can hopefully go skiing and stuff (: its going to be soooooooo fun! i know it! ahhaha. but pathetic ol me have only earned about $400 so far. so sian. but nvm i got another job starting monday (thanks to pam) and hopefully its not a bitchy tiring calling job.. i hope its like the callling i did in uob. that wld be fantastic. haha. i just spent many long hours doing up my resume. i must admit it looks pretty good now.. =) its pretty hardwork.. categorizing.. coloring the words.. not as easy as i thought. now all i need is a good neat picture of me in office wear. ahahha! i really can't imagine. which is why im so keen on going into the advertising arena of work. you don't even have to dress in office wear.. and hopefully if im on the creative side.. i get to come up with advertisement ideas and stuff. that would be so cool. at least i've sort of narrowed down my career scope from 'i really dont know' to 'maybe' haha. anw i think since the past two sems. i really really have learnt so much.. and you start to feel yourself maturing.. both physically and mentally.. its like a whole part of you is just growing up and theres nothing you can do to stop it. i still reminisce about the good ol secondary school days.. but i know theres so much more i got to do now. for now i'm just so glad i have gotten to know two wonderful supervisors from citibank and kelly services.. and hopefully from terrapinn (the lady seems quite nice and friendly via sms) haha. we'll see how work goes on monday (: so many things to look forward to.. why am i still looking back?


i really dont know why i still hate you.. but i still do. i really do. i've no desire to see hear or even think of you. i've nv felt such strong detestment for someone before. it scares and surprises me each time.